Well this is disturbing ~
Oh hey guys im back ! Lols ! I just downloaded the app for blogger and its so much easier for me to blog now lols !
I am watching some past shows on the dvd player while blogging . Can't watch it on my com as i still haven send it for repair yet . Gonna get it fixed before school re-opens . Heh .
You know the worst feeling when your mum just hates you again after being okay awhile ago ? That is the feeling i am having now . She practically shouts at me every single time and ignoring every word i say . What the heck ?! My brother mistreated me while i was drinking from my bottle and the water just spilled all over me . How can i not be angry ? Yes i know when im am angry i do stupid things but i hate the fact that i am always being bullied even by my younger siblings .
I want respect . Is that hard to do ? No right ? I respect them like how i respect my elders . I practically leave them alone when they need privacy , i don't invade anything unless i lose my stuff .
Once again please be lenient to me as i am the older one .
Back because of new media :D
I'm like back because of new media. As FYI, i'm in Republic Poly studying Information Technology and the person up there is my first semester classmate, Arifah :) I'm actually damn hungry now hahas i want to go eat but i don't want to bring my RJ home or else i'lll fall asleep when i reach home and totally forget about it. Science UT tmr ! I NEED TO STUDY ! Someone be my tutor ! Anyway wish me luck :)
I really feel different after finally entering school after one year of waiting but it was worth it as i made new wonderful friends who didn't mind how old i was and still accept my kind of personality. I love you guys :D
Espresso Class
On the 26 , 29 and 30th i went for the espresso class , ALONE at KAP .
Ning Ning last minute cannot make it .
Haiz alone2 from CA3 and the only malay girl .
Sad sia got no malay girls to talk with . Malay all 4 boys O.O
All the girls there are either chinese , philipino or indian .
26/09First day was on a Sunday ~ not many ppl huh .
Tried to go there without taking taxi
(despite Gary asking me to)
and tried my luck on the train . Got lost at Dover .
No choice but have to take taxi from there .
It was damn seriously near ~~ =_="
Got up to the KAP office thinking i was late ,
but there they are the students of the espresso class right in front of my eyes ....
Ugh what a bother going so far for this i thought LOL .
We only had theory that day nothing much really .
I even had the chills of using the small steamer o.O
Didn't make much friends that day just stuck around alot with the 2 chinese gals .
But there were alot of TPM ppl in the class sianz .
29/09Took taxi coz i got out of the house late !
Supposed to go out at 7.30 but i got out at 8.30am !
Bodohnye Irzah LOLS :P
That was the day we get to "waste milk" lols .
Means alot of practicing with the steamer =_="
Had no luck with making the frothing right ...
Tried my best to not ask Mei Chun .
Sat down quite alot coz of the "long queue" and didn't actually want to do any frothing :P
Tried my best to talk to the others in the class including the malay boys .
Only had luck with the DTE ones :)
End of the day Mei Chun wanted me to practice more on the last class LOLS !
Kena caught lepak byk sgt ~
30/09
Haa this is the day i finally got up early :D
Managed to get there on time :D
Self-praise but got down the wrong stop LOLS !
More practicing in the morning !!
Could not get the tactic ~
Sooo had to ask Mei Chun for help XD
Now then i got it ! Thanks :D
Got to know the malay boys more today ~~
They all younger than me AND , is schooling or was in ITE Simei LOLS .
Tsk3 and all three knew ppl i didn't expect them to know .
Si Tpm Asyraf know Redza also HAHAS nicee .
Kata kan budak Sengkang .
During lunch we ate at the pantry tgt with Mei Chun and
celebrated Mus and Huang Miao's birthday .
Full sia ! They bought extra food excluding our own :/
After lunch it was finally the theory & practical test .
It went smoothly ~
I got 34/50 for theory and 20/30 for pratical .
Pass la :DD
Had alot of cleaning and picture taking .
And and and Rayson told us some interesting news ;D
Next month you all will know LOLS :P
Overall i learned alot and had fun thanks again guys !
Till we meet again :DDD
OMG
i think i might go crazy if i do anymore stupid things .
maybe just maybe i know why sometimes people hate me .
ive been looking at things the wrong way too many times and hate it .
i rush things and never think before i act . ahhhh whyyy .
im gonna go crazy soon !!
memories
zuzy was on attachment today . i was tired but i had fun :)
i wish it was like that everyday , having a kakak like her would be so nice <3
i've always wanted one but i had to be the kakak instead .
i still remember my time training in CA2 .
when i first saw her and found out her name .
couldn't actually believe her name was zuzy bcoz sounded funny .
sorry zee :P her real name is longer like mine .
i just like want someone good enough to listen to me ,
couldn't imagine zee being that someone .
she always listens to me whenever i pour out my problems .
she also gives me advice at the same time .
somehow part of me changed bcoz of her and Simi .
they were my listening buddies whom i could trust .
not everyone tells me the truth nicely w/o hurting me .
my heart aches whenever i was told i am this or that .
a shock that changed that part of me .
thanks again guys .
thats why whenever i see them hurt i get hurt too .
my heart aches for them .
but sometimes i wonder why they dont tell me anything .
i can be their listening ears too but myb its bcoz i cant help :(
i hate myself bcoz i cant help but let it go in the end .
coz i dont want them to be even more hurt .
all i can do now i just trust myself everything will be okay .
i cant forgive you
my friends got hurt because of you.
i remembered that you knew of their relationship but YET
you still fell for her , you bastard !
i didnt knew you were this kind of person =_="
i hate you .
we were never meant to be friends coz you dont seem
to care for your friends feelings and pain .
yes , i know of how close you guys were but whatever .
your life , it's better off that i have nothing to do with you .
i hate even looking at you . reminds me of that hurt you caused them .
goodbye . it was nice while it lasted even though we never talked seriously ....
Promotion =DD
ive been promoted to a McCafe Beanie.
i dunnoe i want to say if im happy or not BUT
MY PAY HIGHER LAH DEH by only 30 cents :P
hahas i also got extra money coz i refer ppl to mac COOL lahh :DD
on how happy i am that at least this RM knows how to at least
promote people rather than the old one =-=
i heard he wants to promote 5 CLs.
o.O !! finally some action ! hahahahas mepeks.
my mind has been in lots of confusion right now.
i dunnoe what my heart wants.
maybe its not the right time yet :(
finally hahas !
hahas my fren Kai~ finally get to see my blog lols !! happy le hor ah you :P
i went into audi to check whether he's online and i wad shocked to see him !
after like sooo long !! do that more often !! but tmr he say myb wun online :((
smiling indicates that ur frens loves you and that they enjoy your company ,
without them , i can say that i am nothing really . when they are not around ,
i never smiled much , laughed much or even talk much . they are my entertainment :)
also when im not around , i also hear frm friends they dont enjoy their day much
because im not there to entertain them too . aww so nice of them hor hahas .
just this thursday ,
i was helping arlene arrange the cabinets in crew room for about one hour plus
without going back to store for awhile then hus/arlene told me the rest were asking and looking
for me . i just keep quiet hahas never tell them . after i got back to store after i was done ,
the rest were like attacking me with stuff like "irzah, where you go?" , "you go B2 makan ah?" ,
"you sleeping ah?" hahas of all things they bombard me with questions like those hahas .
espcially azlan and hus , tak habis2 ikut2 basket aku ~~ ahh kena lah korang eh .
bloody hell
"i hate it when something that shouldn't bother me does"
thats the kind of thing that happens when the new RM said he was very dissapointed in me.
but in the first place he used the loud tone to make me go to the counter.
of course it bothered me and i wasn't myself and in the end talk to customers softly.
FINE! WHATEVER! if you're gonna make a big deal just because of that then
after trying so hard not to hate you, you leave me no choice but to hate you.
you dont like me, dont want me to ever become CL, dont want me to stay,
OR do anything that makes you unhappy, FINE! i rather not like you or ever trying so hard!
i do my ever best to make CA3 better and to make sure no customers leave unhappy.
but whenever im upset NOBODY BLOODY CARES what happens after that.
WHY ?! they think im too easy to pick on and to be used! GAHHHHHHHHHHH !!!!!
I HATEEEE MY LIFEEEEEEEEE !!!
i want to know how he feels
i wanna know why does my heart aches whenever i see him tgt so close with her ?
am i feeling jealousy ? i hate the fact that even when she has a bf , she gets close to other guys .
i feel bad for her bf but i cnt do anything , coz i have no right to say anything at all .
he feels bad as well but doesn't try to do anything much even though i asked him but
maybe it's because he doesnt want to lose friends like them . but its like soo wrong !!
i just dont understand seriously . i wanna help but im more of a hindrance than of help .
i cry alot because of holding it too much . i dont want to get hurt all the time but nth helps :(
mgrs want me to work hard for the CL position but now i see myself like this , im worried i cant .
i everytime want to leave ca3 mac asap but everytime i think about how they need me there ,
i stop saying i want to leave but then again why should i stay when im not happy ???
my friends all left , leaving behind just a few of us there to cope and with all that stress with
the new crews and all being selfish and lazy i just cant take it !!
why do i have to be their bloody robot ?! im human too !! why dont they care what i feel ?!!! :'(
Well this is disturbing ~
Oh hey guys im back ! Lols ! I just downloaded the app for blogger and its so much easier for me to blog now lols !
I am watching some past shows on the dvd player while blogging . Can't watch it on my com as i still haven send it for repair yet . Gonna get it fixed before school re-opens . Heh .
You know the worst feeling when your mum just hates you again after being okay awhile ago ? That is the feeling i am having now . She practically shouts at me every single time and ignoring every word i say . What the heck ?! My brother mistreated me while i was drinking from my bottle and the water just spilled all over me . How can i not be angry ? Yes i know when im am angry i do stupid things but i hate the fact that i am always being bullied even by my younger siblings .
I want respect . Is that hard to do ? No right ? I respect them like how i respect my elders . I practically leave them alone when they need privacy , i don't invade anything unless i lose my stuff .
Once again please be lenient to me as i am the older one .
Back because of new media :D
I'm like back because of new media. As FYI, i'm in Republic Poly studying Information Technology and the person up there is my first semester classmate, Arifah :) I'm actually damn hungry now hahas i want to go eat but i don't want to bring my RJ home or else i'lll fall asleep when i reach home and totally forget about it. Science UT tmr ! I NEED TO STUDY ! Someone be my tutor ! Anyway wish me luck :)
I really feel different after finally entering school after one year of waiting but it was worth it as i made new wonderful friends who didn't mind how old i was and still accept my kind of personality. I love you guys :D
Espresso Class
On the 26 , 29 and 30th i went for the espresso class , ALONE at KAP .
Ning Ning last minute cannot make it .
Haiz alone2 from CA3 and the only malay girl .
Sad sia got no malay girls to talk with . Malay all 4 boys O.O
All the girls there are either chinese , philipino or indian .
26/09First day was on a Sunday ~ not many ppl huh .
Tried to go there without taking taxi
(despite Gary asking me to)
and tried my luck on the train . Got lost at Dover .
No choice but have to take taxi from there .
It was damn seriously near ~~ =_="
Got up to the KAP office thinking i was late ,
but there they are the students of the espresso class right in front of my eyes ....
Ugh what a bother going so far for this i thought LOL .
We only had theory that day nothing much really .
I even had the chills of using the small steamer o.O
Didn't make much friends that day just stuck around alot with the 2 chinese gals .
But there were alot of TPM ppl in the class sianz .
29/09Took taxi coz i got out of the house late !
Supposed to go out at 7.30 but i got out at 8.30am !
Bodohnye Irzah LOLS :P
That was the day we get to "waste milk" lols .
Means alot of practicing with the steamer =_="
Had no luck with making the frothing right ...
Tried my best to not ask Mei Chun .
Sat down quite alot coz of the "long queue" and didn't actually want to do any frothing :P
Tried my best to talk to the others in the class including the malay boys .
Only had luck with the DTE ones :)
End of the day Mei Chun wanted me to practice more on the last class LOLS !
Kena caught lepak byk sgt ~
30/09
Haa this is the day i finally got up early :D
Managed to get there on time :D
Self-praise but got down the wrong stop LOLS !
More practicing in the morning !!
Could not get the tactic ~
Sooo had to ask Mei Chun for help XD
Now then i got it ! Thanks :D
Got to know the malay boys more today ~~
They all younger than me AND , is schooling or was in ITE Simei LOLS .
Tsk3 and all three knew ppl i didn't expect them to know .
Si Tpm Asyraf know Redza also HAHAS nicee .
Kata kan budak Sengkang .
During lunch we ate at the pantry tgt with Mei Chun and
celebrated Mus and Huang Miao's birthday .
Full sia ! They bought extra food excluding our own :/
After lunch it was finally the theory & practical test .
It went smoothly ~
I got 34/50 for theory and 20/30 for pratical .
Pass la :DD
Had alot of cleaning and picture taking .
And and and Rayson told us some interesting news ;D
Next month you all will know LOLS :P
Overall i learned alot and had fun thanks again guys !
Till we meet again :DDD
OMG
i think i might go crazy if i do anymore stupid things .
maybe just maybe i know why sometimes people hate me .
ive been looking at things the wrong way too many times and hate it .
i rush things and never think before i act . ahhhh whyyy .
im gonna go crazy soon !!
memories
zuzy was on attachment today . i was tired but i had fun :)
i wish it was like that everyday , having a kakak like her would be so nice <3
i've always wanted one but i had to be the kakak instead .
i still remember my time training in CA2 .
when i first saw her and found out her name .
couldn't actually believe her name was zuzy bcoz sounded funny .
sorry zee :P her real name is longer like mine .
i just like want someone good enough to listen to me ,
couldn't imagine zee being that someone .
she always listens to me whenever i pour out my problems .
she also gives me advice at the same time .
somehow part of me changed bcoz of her and Simi .
they were my listening buddies whom i could trust .
not everyone tells me the truth nicely w/o hurting me .
my heart aches whenever i was told i am this or that .
a shock that changed that part of me .
thanks again guys .
thats why whenever i see them hurt i get hurt too .
my heart aches for them .
but sometimes i wonder why they dont tell me anything .
i can be their listening ears too but myb its bcoz i cant help :(
i hate myself bcoz i cant help but let it go in the end .
coz i dont want them to be even more hurt .
all i can do now i just trust myself everything will be okay .
i cant forgive you
my friends got hurt because of you.
i remembered that you knew of their relationship but YET
you still fell for her , you bastard !
i didnt knew you were this kind of person =_="
i hate you .
we were never meant to be friends coz you dont seem
to care for your friends feelings and pain .
yes , i know of how close you guys were but whatever .
your life , it's better off that i have nothing to do with you .
i hate even looking at you . reminds me of that hurt you caused them .
goodbye . it was nice while it lasted even though we never talked seriously ....
Promotion =DD
ive been promoted to a McCafe Beanie.
i dunnoe i want to say if im happy or not BUT
MY PAY HIGHER LAH DEH by only 30 cents :P
hahas i also got extra money coz i refer ppl to mac COOL lahh :DD
on how happy i am that at least this RM knows how to at least
promote people rather than the old one =-=
i heard he wants to promote 5 CLs.
o.O !! finally some action ! hahahahas mepeks.
my mind has been in lots of confusion right now.
i dunnoe what my heart wants.
maybe its not the right time yet :(
finally hahas !
hahas my fren Kai~ finally get to see my blog lols !! happy le hor ah you :P
i went into audi to check whether he's online and i wad shocked to see him !
after like sooo long !! do that more often !! but tmr he say myb wun online :((
smiling indicates that ur frens loves you and that they enjoy your company ,
without them , i can say that i am nothing really . when they are not around ,
i never smiled much , laughed much or even talk much . they are my entertainment :)
also when im not around , i also hear frm friends they dont enjoy their day much
because im not there to entertain them too . aww so nice of them hor hahas .
just this thursday ,
i was helping arlene arrange the cabinets in crew room for about one hour plus
without going back to store for awhile then hus/arlene told me the rest were asking and looking
for me . i just keep quiet hahas never tell them . after i got back to store after i was done ,
the rest were like attacking me with stuff like "irzah, where you go?" , "you go B2 makan ah?" ,
"you sleeping ah?" hahas of all things they bombard me with questions like those hahas .
espcially azlan and hus , tak habis2 ikut2 basket aku ~~ ahh kena lah korang eh .
bloody hell
"i hate it when something that shouldn't bother me does"
thats the kind of thing that happens when the new RM said he was very dissapointed in me.
but in the first place he used the loud tone to make me go to the counter.
of course it bothered me and i wasn't myself and in the end talk to customers softly.
FINE! WHATEVER! if you're gonna make a big deal just because of that then
after trying so hard not to hate you, you leave me no choice but to hate you.
you dont like me, dont want me to ever become CL, dont want me to stay,
OR do anything that makes you unhappy, FINE! i rather not like you or ever trying so hard!
i do my ever best to make CA3 better and to make sure no customers leave unhappy.
but whenever im upset NOBODY BLOODY CARES what happens after that.
WHY ?! they think im too easy to pick on and to be used! GAHHHHHHHHHHH !!!!!
I HATEEEE MY LIFEEEEEEEEE !!!
i want to know how he feels
i wanna know why does my heart aches whenever i see him tgt so close with her ?
am i feeling jealousy ? i hate the fact that even when she has a bf , she gets close to other guys .
i feel bad for her bf but i cnt do anything , coz i have no right to say anything at all .
he feels bad as well but doesn't try to do anything much even though i asked him but
maybe it's because he doesnt want to lose friends like them . but its like soo wrong !!
i just dont understand seriously . i wanna help but im more of a hindrance than of help .
i cry alot because of holding it too much . i dont want to get hurt all the time but nth helps :(
mgrs want me to work hard for the CL position but now i see myself like this , im worried i cant .
i everytime want to leave ca3 mac asap but everytime i think about how they need me there ,
i stop saying i want to leave but then again why should i stay when im not happy ???
my friends all left , leaving behind just a few of us there to cope and with all that stress with
the new crews and all being selfish and lazy i just cant take it !!
why do i have to be their bloody robot ?! im human too !! why dont they care what i feel ?!!! :'(
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